Wednesday, March 19, 2008
ive become so immune to everything around me. i dont know what to feel anymore.
maybe i should learn to stop feeling and just think. thinking is way better.
that way, you wont get hurt. cause its mind over matter. and your mind will protect your heart.
(:
im just gonna......let my mind do the work.
i feel my emotions getting the better of me and i think that's not good.
goodbye feelings.
hello thinking.
Friday, January 25, 2008
hello you.
ive got so much to say to you. but i know that if this blog post is long and draggy you'll probably not want to read it.
but yeah. i'll still have to say what i want to say.
you're really something..something really special. i just know it. not just to me, but to the people around you.
you are really loved. i know it. i can tell. you may think otherwise. but trust me on this please? you may think lowly of yourself. but WAKE UP please. you are not that bad.
ive said a million times that you are really nice and all, talented especially. but my words just fall on deaf ears. but dont worry. i wont give up reminding you how special you are.
mark my words. you are special. God has created you. uniquely you. different from the rest. set aside for His purpose.
do not look down on yourself. you are always so pessimistic. and it really hurts me to hear you putting yourself down. but i'm no one to you. i'm just a friend and there's nothing much i can do but to support you and TRY MY BEST TO MAKE YOU SMILE.
see you smile, hearing you laugh just makes me happy.
my heart really goes out to you. i really wanna know what you've been through before. i wanna help you move on and get over it. stop using guitar and shooting as an escape for running away from reality. be strong. face up to it. i know and i believe in you. i know that somewhere deep down within you, you'll find the real strong you that you use to be.
i wanna be able to hold you up when you are down. be there to support you when you are confused. just be a friend. lend you a shoulder. be emo with you when you are emo. JUST A FRIEND. but somehow you dont get it do you? opening up to someone is not easy but let me be the one to hear you. let me be a reminder to you that God loves you and He does not want you to keep everything to yourself.
ive still got so much to say, but i dont know how to start and what to say now. i'll be here for you, this i promise.
Monday, January 07, 2008
i'm emoing. this is bad. sigh.
i'm confused. lost. everything is just coming to me. sigh. ):
Thursday, November 29, 2007
where have you gone to?
why have you disappeared from my life?
how do i get you to come back?
have i done something to cause you to move away?
sigh.
come back to me?
come back into my life?
Monday, November 26, 2007
LOVE ALWAYS DOESNT TURN OUT THE WAY YOU WANT IT TO
No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I’m asking for
No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind
I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattooI’ll always have you (I'll always have you)
Sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I’ve gotta be strong and leave you behind
If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
Still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you
Thursday, October 18, 2007
i feel like i'm losing grip of you.
i'm holding on so tight that its getting tiring.
loving you and not being able to tell you and know how you feel aint a nice feeling.
okay. anyway, enough love stuff la.
sitting in my room alone made me start thinking and reflecting about my life. about how i've grown and how i have been hurt over and over again.
it's so scary how time has flown right past.
N levels has already ended. the next thing i know, i'll be in the hall taking my O levels.
wow.
i never knew secondary school life would finish so fast.
i dont want this year to end. it's the best yet so far. i've met people that really blessed and touched my life.
they've walked right into my life and walk straight out. but thank you for coming into my life. you have taught me a valuable lesson.
the feeling inside is something so different, i've never felt this way before. i dont know what i'm feeling. i got so much to say but i dont know how to put it into words. i just wanna cry it all out.
moving on, leaving my friends behind is a scary thought that i'll never ever wanna think about.
okay, i seriously dont know what in the world i'm blogging about. so yeah. hahah. dont be confused while reading my blog. ((:
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
my day was the worse ever today. gosh! i feel like banging my head on the wall laaaa!
argh!
dear God, i'm sorry. please forgive me for scolding people that were innocent.
i pray that you'll help me to control my anger. amen.
yes. does that say everything about my day?
okay. that's all.
