Tuesday, July 10, 2007
ouch ouch ouch. triple ouch.
my heart has broken into many many pieces.
first abinash, then fadzli then gordon.
you people werent even helping at all.
i'm fine with being friends, i really am. but what's going on la.
could you AT LEAST explain.
okay, maybe now me and fadzli are okay. but..
sigh.. i dont know what to do anymore okay!
i'm just gonna sit in my room in a corner and cry to myself.
every night just gonna cry to sleep.
gordon, i'm not sure if you'll still be reading this..
but i just wanna know i'll still be your friend. i promise. i dont understand why you didnt wanna answer my call. i just wanted to tell you i was okay with the arrangements.
abi, you dont even know this blog.
but i wanna tell you that i hate quarrelling with you.
i cut cause i didnt have any other choice. will you please stop getting pissed at me?! this aint fun. i know you are going thru your own set of problems but keeping it to yourself aint gonna help. at least if you tell me then everything will be okay. then i'll know how to talk to you. all i see in school of you is just a black face. a face with no expressions.
i hate it you know.
sigh. what's happening la.
i just wanna go back to the past, where everything was happy and all was fine. but now, what's going on now is the worse i've ever thought of. it's dreadful. i never thought this would happen.
i thought i would just be happy being single. loving myself, my friends, God and my beloved family. but no. it's not going my way. maybe i just thought to much. i should have used my emotions, my gut.
i guess i was not strong enough to follow my heart, i guess i followed my head. but seems like there's no turning back anymore. i'm not gonna do anything about it. i'm just gonna like things settle on it's own. i just wanna be alone. all by my side.
take care world.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
i saw you today in school.
so much emotions stirred up within.
i dont know what i'm thinking.
but all i know is that i'm still not turning back.
