Thursday, September 28, 2006
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
i was so happy when you told me that....yeahh..
but when i asked her she made me sad.
sigh. i dont know what to do or what to say.
i miss her.
i dont know what she's thinking la.
sigh.
i wanna know if she still loves me.
i know she doesnt want to patch.
but why?
she say she doesnt want to hurt me?
but she is since she's not with me.
and i'm hurting even more now cause she's not with me.
sigh. i really love her you know. sigh.
i wanna go die now la!
fuck!
THAT'S ALL I CAN THINK OF!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
so many people are telling me not to wait.
but i will still wait.
i'll always be waiting.
oh wells.
i know i've gotta move on.but not now.
maybe after i graduate from this school la.
we'll see.
i dont feel like ranting today. i dont know.
i'm still
i dont know what to say la.
i just wanna cry all day.
rahhhhhhhh!
today was okay la.
sok made my day. des made my day. denise made my day. cheryl made my day. sam made my day. thanks all.
sigh.
i still am sad.
i guess i cant trust
you guys spoke bad about me behind my back.
i trusted you guys la.
sigh.
i think you'll like her.
it's so obvious.
and it's like you like her not cause you think she's pretty but you guys have chemistry.
sigh.
well.
if you really like her and she likes you too. go with her okay?
cause i know you'll be happy.
even though i'll be sad i'll still be happy for you.
sigh.
i wanna go die alr la.
sigh.
my life sucks la.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
sigh.
i'm really depressed now.
i regret breaking up with you. sigh. i really love you alot.
sigh.
baby, i really want you back. i know you dont wanna patch back but baby i really want to prove to you i'm serious about you.
i just want one more chance.
sigh.
i dont know what to do anymore.
i cry myself to sleep since you left.
please come back?
you are the love of my life. i only love you. trust me.
though i may seem happy i really not.
i just act it out so that pple would not know that i'm sad cause once they know they'll start tagging.
whenever i see you in school, i start to think about the times we spent tgt and i start to tear, wanting to cry. but i know i cant cry cause i cant let those pple that dont like me think that they won.
i must prove to them that i am strong.
sigh.
i really want you back.
i wonder if you'll ever read this.
but please baby i just want one more shot at this.
you are all i think about.
my mind is filled with you.
i fell so hard for you.
gave you my heart.
but you threw it away.
it's broken now.
only you can mend it.
but will you do so?
i wish you would.
tell me you love me once more.
let's get together baby.
i love you.
i wont hurt you i promise.
this promise i wont break.
FUCK THE WORLD.this girl in is dilema.suffering frm depression was wad she nvr thought of,and she nvr thought tt she'll be on medication.she numbs herself with countless ways,trying hard to let the pain inside of her go.she tries so hard to pls ppl arnd her.but yet, her efforts go to waste.she's sick and tired of everything arnd her.and wonders if she could jus end it all one day.she covers the pain inside her with all her smiles.the lies tt fall arnd her, hatred and betrayal.she wonders if anyone cares and has doubts abt it.will she live to the end? or will she jus go,silently, without anyone knwing tt she's alr left the world,spiritually.she dosen knw. she jus lives in her own world,of darkness, hatred and lies.and she nvr knws if it'll all go away someday, somehow.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
wtf!
did you like see my tagboard! val's and sok's tagboard too?!!
omg la! assholes.
fuck la.
i shall not care about what they say. wth.
anyway, let's not talk about this kind of fucking thing. spoil my mood only.
today was actually not bad la.
we went to mos to eat lunch then went to sk to ball. it was like raining and we played in the rain!! hahaha. i almost lost my ring.
thanks to jasmine i found it!! (:
baby was suppose to send me to dental but she wanted to play ball then never send me. i so sad la! ):
sighhhhhh.
i'm talking to number one now.
it's been a long time i've talked to her. i really do miss her! (:
oh wells. hope she's doing fine. i really thank her for always being there for me whenever i needed a listening ear.
she's great.
but baby's the best!! (: i love my baby to bits!
and i think i'm back into the balling mood. i feel like going to ball nowwww!! but i cant! need to study for the upcoming exams! i want to go to the through train thingy.
sigh. i am really praying hard to get into it.
sigh.
i'm still quite affected by my blog.heck la! i do not want to take away my tagboard anymore cause if i do then pple will think i'm some loser. that's why i dont dare to 'FACE REALITY' whatever la.
sigh.okay okay.i dont wanna care about it anymore.i just know now that i love my baby.
thanks baby for making me smile today. (:
thanks jasmine for finding my ring.
thanks prince for just being there.
oh wells. that's about it.
ohhhh. and thanks cheryl and denise for being there for me in school.
i love you guys alot. (:
okay then.
i shall stop here.
cheerios!!! ((:
i miss baby!!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
hmmmm.
today was quite fun la.
yesterday sucked la.
i was like freaking saddd!! i cried can?!!!! haiya. anyway, i'm super tired now la.
you la! make me so tired.hahaha! (:
but it was fun fun fun la.
amerie is damn mean! and baby, i dont like amerie alr la.
i only love you okay?! (:
take care.
i dont know what to say anymore.
all i know that. i'm still ABIT tired. woohoo.
singapore idol is on now.
hahahahahahahaha! (:
who do you think will win? yawns. i'm still kinda like in a daze.
i miss my baby!!
omg! did you see val's blog??!! the tag! whahahaha.it's damn retarded.
why would sok like me la.
gosh. (:
hahahahaha.
okay then. i cant wait for friday!! going out with des to study!
yayy! i love my baby.
okay.i know that was really random but ya. hahaha. (:
take care all.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
haiya. i think today i was just like moodswinging. sorry about that. (:
delete my tagboard? sure but not yet.
sigh.i dont know what to do.
i just know that i really love you lot. and i dont know what i'll do without you.
sigh sigh sigh.
you sure you okay?
you were weird in school today?
maybe you were just tired right? (:
you take care alrights? (: haiya. do your work la. haha.
i'll help you as much as i can. but you still have to study for your exams.
haiyaya. you are like sleeping like a pig today...hahahahah! (:
oh ya. prince! (:
i miss you plenty. you left so early today. not fun. ):
hahahahahahaha.
next time come out with us more okay? or we could study in school.
you take care okay?
love you plenty.
wait. i love my baby more.
and thanks bung for being there to listen to meeeee!! (:
you rock yeah?
and happy birthday laogong!! (:
byeeeee.
off to do work now... (:
i rock! i love myself. and go read my other blog the tag board.
hahahahahaha
Monday, September 18, 2006
sigh.
i'm freaking pissed la. i dont like that girl. i feel like she's taking you away from me.
she's like making you go all worried for her.
so what if she likes you.
i'm your girlfriend you know.sigh. i dont know what to say.
ya ya ya. she's your friend and all.
whatever la.and i just wanted you to send me home. okay. fine. i listen to your reason.
you have to go home. but you went back to compass. haiya. i'm sorry for being possessive and all la.
but i just wanna spend time with you la.okay!
sigh.
it's like i'm grounded now. and all my free time, i'd love to spend with you la. but sigh. you dont get it do you? well. i'm telling you now okay. sigh.
i hope you do understand.
i just wanna spend time with you.
baby, i miss you.
sigh.
and amerie, why you get so pissed off today.
i was just playing la.
aiyah.whatever.i cant be bothered anymore.
i'm gonna go for tuition alr.
bye.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
yesterday was horrid la.
i cried.
but everything is over now.
i hope.
i really hope it wont happen again.i'm scared la. sigh. i mean like i dont know what to say when you told me that. i mean i do respect your decision. but it was like really sudden.
i just didnt know what to do.
so ya. sigh.
okay okay.
today was okay for me.
i went to tuition. some people i didnt expect to see went for tuition. haven seen them for ages alr.
they look so different.
so much better looking now.
slimmed down too.
okay okay.
that's all.
going out for family dinner soon.
love you baby!! (:
Saturday, September 16, 2006
haiya.i dont know what to say la.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
rant rant rant rant.
blah blah blah blah.
rahhhhh!
i got so many things on my mind. so many emotions running thru me.
i love you. i really do.
but do you love me?
sigh. a little lesser? why?
what did i do??!!! sigh. if it's cause of the smoking. then i'm sorry.
i told you i wont do it again. is there anything that i can do to make you love me more?
baby, please come back. love me the same way i do.
i miss those times we were so in love. i want us to last baby. i really do.
those spammers irritate me too. i mean like i dont wish to fight with them alr la.
i'm tired. i've got no more strength.
i dont know what they want la.
haiya. whatever la. i dont care anymore.
